I have purchased a subscription so if you are interested in me after reading this lengthy description please message me and provide me with a way to contact you outside this website? First and most importantly, I do not want to be contacted by other sissies or crossdressers. I am not interested at all in being with a crossdresser or sissy. I am these things. I am a girl inside and I am looking for a gay male who is attracted to effeminate total bottoms. I'm also looking to develop a long term relationship. I am not interested in a one night stand. I am an effeminate, sissy, crossdresser gurl looking for someone I can develop a long term relationship with. I love being effeminate and want to be with a man who'll make me feel like a gurl in every way. I am not passable at this time but will do everything possible to look as gurlie as I possibly can. I wear panties, tights, hose, bra and dresses under my outer clothes almost every day and fantasize about the day when I can go out in public with my boyfriend, one of his large' muscular arms holding me tight against him, my little girlie hand in his fingers interlaced, my little girlie arm around his waist and the little girlie fingers of my hand in his massive one, fingers interlaced. I dream of kissing in public as he holds me tightly, my long sleeved, full length hot pink dress drawing attention to us. I daydream about making love for the first time in my apartment and imagine myself screaming so loudly we disturb the neighbors all night long. I yearn to be put in a chastity where access to my opening and crotch is prevented by padlocks holding a piece of metal or thick leather in place. I smile at the thought of him having the only key to the securing padlocks on his keyring. I want to be restrained, hobbled' bound sometimes and always experience the pleasure of being with him while beneath him, arms and legs wrapped tightly around his body as he takes me for hours in missionary position. I love to kiss, cuddle, snuggle, make out, have hickies sucked on my neck, give him oral, be rimmed by him and serve him in every way as his girl. I want to cook meals, wash dishes, clean the home, make our bed, do the laundry and all things that most female partners do for their lovers in heterosexual relationships. I want to wear makeup, lipstick, perfumes and feminine jewelry. One day I hope to be outed by the man who makes me his when he taggs me in a photo showing us making out, in bed together or in some act that clearly shows us being intimate. I am a gurl inside and wouldg love to be with a man who'll direct me, instruct me, guide me and tailor me into his ideal dream gurl. I keep my body shaved and can't wait to undergo electrolysis to remove my body hair permanently. I already sit down to pee as a preference and wish I had to do this as a requirement. I wear maxi pads because doing so makes me feel more girlie. I cry at awww moments, happy endings and inspirational news stories. From the time I was very young I have dreamed of getting flowers and chocolates from a boyfriend. What I would really like is to be with a black man and be known as his white gurl but race is not a big deal, it is just a very strong desire I have.I want someone who is dominant, a little controlling, possessive and an aggressive lover. He must! be HIV negative and STD free because I want to enjoy bareback lovemaking. He should be physically fit, well endowed, experienced as a top, have a high sex drive and loads of stamina. If that's you, let's get together? I do wish to inform you that I am visually impaired and cannot drive. I do live alone however, I am self employed and independent for the most part. About the only thing I cannot do is drive and as the effeminate partner in a same sex relationship, I would prefer my boyfriend do all the driving anyway.